It's already happening. In the words of Peyton Sawyer (One Tree Hill), "People Always Leave." I hate this. I'm not good with goodbyes. I'm not okay with everyone moving on with their lives, parting ways and pretending that we'll all keep in touch, when in reality, we all know it will never ever be the same again. I've seen people graduate and move away, only to turn into an occasional missed call or Facebook comment. It freaking sucks! I know change is the only constant thing in the universe, but I can't make myself accept it with open arms. I fight it...hard. Tears can't make it better. My heart hurts. It sucks that I've finally found my group, my niche here at Lee, and it's all disappearing, like sand through my fingers. It seems cruel of God to allow me to get close to people, only to have them leave. I know the cliche notion that one's true friends will remain, but that means nothing to me at this point. I just can't do this. May keeps staring me in the face, everyday, every moment of the day. And I have no idea where I'm going or what I'm doing or who will remain in my life. Everything is uncertain, a mystery. The beginning of the end is happening, and I don't know what to do.
I'm out.
Cwalk.
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